...getting to where i must.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
damn
a few rambles
i will gladly concede
the trophy of daisies
that floats down the river
to your victory,
you have always been the victor
i will follow it,
removed if need be,
watching the currents
take your prize
to more calming seas
and if told by the victor
to be bold and
turn away,
i will change my eyes
away from my mistakes
and i will live,
knowing your victory
was really all i truly wanted
lets race
Monday, December 28, 2009
uncle d, bud light me
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
flight 2095
vegas, how have i never seen you like this?
is it me?
have my eyes become more willing to see your
shining bones beneath the grit of it all?
damn you, its cold
but a sky like this i have never
witnessed.
there is more to you than booze, ballers, blackjack and bitches
well, not a whole lot.
you are still what you are
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Charles in charge...
it is hard to recognize my self these days,
but only in the best of ways
will you all agree with me?
i have found the newest dance in town
and i am moving and grooving to the grave
will you be at my wake?
i have earned my stars of wonder
from ascending the stairs of random strangers
will you share a drink with me?
i am falling into it. i am falling into it
and it is the fall the frees my being
will you let me bruise my knees?
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
the center of the earth
Monday, December 14, 2009
2010... you are mine for the taking
'hey joesph,
wipe that shit-eating grin off
your damn face"
but good god,
why?
life, will you not let me look forward to this?
honestly,
i have no expectations
can't i enjoy this...
i am smiling
not that i haven't recently
( i have learned to smile at the shit)
but the hope...
the possibility of a good time
at least.
hallelujah
really,
i need you, those who care for my
well being, my vulnerability,
my good-nature ,
those who have loved me,
for you to let me have this,
a life without "what are the risk?"
I have weighed the risk all my life.
i can't ( i wont, i refuse!!) think about what i will next
trip on
let me fall, if need be.
it will be a "what a fall"
a hard one,
but in that fall i will wear a coat of joy
so wonderful
so worth it
i will grin my way to the grave
if need be...
Sunday, December 13, 2009
general relativity
oh saints of my soul,
look at us, braving this
shit-show
oh saints of my becoming,
listen to our howls in this
time of discovery
oh saints of my well-being,
"thanks" i scream, scream!
yet let me dream
for once, let me be blind to this
oh saints of my bar tab,
close me out only
when i lose my love for all
oh saints of my poor vagrants,
free me again and again
from my thoughts of restraint
i love i love i love you all
can't this be enough?
for once, let me guided by this
Friday, December 11, 2009
don't worry...it's not just the alcohol. no joke.
jay-z
prepare to meet your maker
and others...
(dylan and those who know ME(which is few))
this aint about you.
this is new york
no joke
don't mind if it leaves me broke
i have this,
don't take it
don't reason it
just heal it
if need be
just let me
go
(the words i utter in the mirror, above and bellow)
follow your goddamn gut,
for pete's sake
4:04 A.M.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
foggy days, tow trucks, and cult members (what a scary pass)
what was that?
something that i forgot?
something on yet another walk home
after a night that seems to be
the most important night of
this life of mine?
What did i forget?
what would i say?
what would happen if
given the opportunity to utter
"i am willing to loose for you?"
"timing is everything..."
who heard that?
who heard that spoken from my mouth?
like a champ,
i saw you dance
exposed to me.
not your skin,
but your soul.
an openness i wish
i had the bravery to show to
at least one other soul.
the false guilt of who i was.
what if...
what if...
what if i had this compass back then?
this compass of now?
Oh, i would have said "of course"
on that beach
and saying "of course "
might have saved us
on that foggy day,
but the truth is
it took realizing the truth
of this shit show we pitter-patter in
is bogus.
if then was now
i would have been all game
to sink into that sand
on the foggy beach
with you
"keep your thought to your self, joseph!,"
yells the keeper of reason.
"where has reason gotten me?"
reason has lost me my god,
and i will never find him again
"oh no no no
Joseph, be a bit more discrete
don't be the fool
for those who can't understand
what you have seen."
but why hide what is true to me?
so, without further ado,
my manifesto folks,
my truth...
if you want the best for your lovers
and loved ones,
if you can say that truth
without doubt,
then ruin yourself
for someone else
do something destructive
you don't agree with,
because the smile of a person
you care for is enough
to heal your self-affliction...
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
dream boat
the truth about venn diagrams
Monday, December 7, 2009
hurry up, 3 hour power of NOW-er
don't be confused,
i suffer enough of that
for the whole damn world
i have taken it all on for you
miss number 2
my one my one
"lets sell everything and leave
on wednesday, no
thursday. FOR ROMANCE
i have $400,
i will spend on your lost...lost...lost"
oh you two, assholes of friends,
best fuckers ever
you almost got me to go
Goddamn, i wish four hundred
was enough
to get me to you to say
"what if i wasn't an idiot?"
Saturday, December 5, 2009
needs with strings
oh what a life
to be wasted by
my haunting
past.
i loved,
but i failed
like so many of us,
us hemmingways
we can't all be saints
but goddamn it,
i am sure as shit we
are going to fucking try
fuck it,
time for bed
here is my last photo
i ever took of you
i see it now
i feel that
void i found so long
long ago
like i said,
fuck it,
time for bed
Thursday, December 3, 2009
never wake, never shake
ha ha ha
let it ride, let this day
ride on
let there be no useless dawn,
for the walk home with
three beers deep
on an empty stomach
is just right for me
to see the truth
the truth is,
pretty girl,
i will love you.
love you tooooooo
much
all i want is to kiss the back
of your neck at the early dawn,
half asleep,
yet aware,
of the taste of your skin.
so, pretty girls
show me the truth that
resides on the skin on your neck
let me taste it
let tomorrow's dawn
be started with that taste
let me push your hair
out of my way.
your hair gets in the way
of the love i
truly wish to give
let me wake with you,
with someone...
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)