81 and smoking

"81" Lubitel 2B, 120 Kodakchrome EEG 100 ISO (cross-processed)

No more smokes. I bought the gum. I am chewing it right now. I am tired of this habit that has consumed my life. Honestly, I would love it if i could just smoke with coffee or beer, but I just need to quit all the way for a good while.

this gum taste like a dead skunk's ass. All it does it speed up my heart rate.

I am going to stick to my guns...

move it along move it along

"self portrait in vegas (where is vegas?) Lubitel 2B, 120 Kodakchrome EEG, 100 ISO (cross-processed)

The air is changing. It is brisk. I have been finding myself with a slight chill in my bones. Fall is coming...

I find myself waiting. For what i am not not sure, but like the fall air, i can feel it coming. An anxiety I am strangely excited about. My page is going to turn, and like a novel with countless uncertainties, my story is going to unfold before me. And like a character in any book, I am going to react to these changes. By now, i am confident i am going to make the right choice with my life. I will cope and deal with it if i must. I will embrace it with joy, for i know that it is necessary for me.

there is so much i keep in. bottled up and waiting. I think it is going to be forced out soon. And i think is going to be beautiful.

ANSCO

"Chris looking up(at what?)" Ansco SHUR SHOT, 120 Kodakchrome EEG, 100 iso (cross-processed)

I bought an old camera a few weeks ago and got back my first test roll. It is an ansco shur shot, from the 1950's. It is a simple, 6x9 camera with no shutter, focus or apiture settings. Pretty much it is a glorified pinhole camera (with a lens)

I love it...

NIneteen

"A recreation of nineteen" Lubitel 2B, 120 expired Konica, 400 iso



"Nineteen" by jambo land

For Andrew Kirk

Tom Robbins saved you, Hermann Hesse saved me
Such awkard heros we have at the age of niniteen
Because Jesus wasn't king when we were niniteen

You had your great freak out on linolium floor
I had my great melt down in a snow storm
Nothing makes sense anymore, because we are nineteen

hey how are you? Ya, I was nineteen once too
hey how are you? Ya, I was nineteen once too once too
hey how are you? Ya, I was nineteen once too once too once tooooooo...

I am stumbling towards my sister's slum
In there I have a friend, his name is Mold E. von Molderson

"And I will never ever reread a sigle book that i read when I was nineteen.
Everything that that cursed year brought me was so goddamn confussing
i just want back my sanity."

the split series

This photo is the second of a series of six photos I am going to be hanging up at the Fine Grind next week. It is my first "series" of photos. The whole concept came from a mistake in the printing process. Some of my photos came out split in half with the next negative on the roll. The effect caught my eye pretty hard so I decided to roll with it.

For the first time in my life, i am calling myself a photographer. there is nothing else i wish to do.

Ice picks and Tony

Last night was rough.
I don't want to get into details, but it is very rare that I imagine stabbing someone in their bald head with an ice pick. I don't like having these thoughts. I don't have these thoughts often, but if I do, the person usually warrants them. Work was rough last night.

But today is a good day. I just finished some breakfast with peter and goose. We cooked at their house. (i just watched, no cooking here) I don't have to work until 4:00 and i have tomorrow off. It is going to be a glorious day.

This photo is Tony playing the harmonica. I was a little concerned at first because he was moving so much and I had a low speed film. "Why not make him move?"

It worked out okay...

Back in action...

Okay, things are now in order...

I have been able to budget myself well for the next month and I should be able to get all of my film processed in the next 5 to 6 weeks. I should have a lot to show you.

This first pic of the batch was taken on 120 Konica 400 ISO film. The film was three years expired and has a really washed out look to it. I shot this roll with a Diana F+ on the pinhole setting. I also made a mask over the film to give it a wide, choppy border. Even though the Diana is arguably the worst camera ever ( those who say this are usually camera Nazis), I love this little cheap treasure.

More to come. I promise. This pic is not the best, mostly an experiment. But i enjoy it...

Familiar Images - Noltee

I love this dog. No matter how bad of a day i have, Noltee always gives me some love. I am going to take him on a walk. It is a nice day.

15 hours

I worked yesterday for 15 hours at the olive garden.

this picture of Mr. Hazen sums up the feelings I had for everything by the end of that 15 hours...

photo news...

So, I am going to be taking a break from taking pictures for about a month or two. I really need to focus on getting the film I have taking processed and printed before I start with the projects I wish to do. I have about 25 rolls of 120 film i need to get off to the lab. It comes to about 15 bucks a roll. you do the math...

The good thing is that I will be able to share with you all of the pictures I have taken this summer. I should have a slew of them.

I have a series of projects coming up that I am excited about. I am looking forward to sharing them with everyone.

toddles...